More about Jim, what kind of man did i think he was when i was 18. Very good looking, perfectly fit except his pectorals and biceps could of done a few more bench presses. His legs , butt, and face , was for most woman something to drool about. Jim laughed all the time, about everything, he seemed to be most happiest when it came around dinner time. Jim really appreciates a excellent meal presented with class. I am a kind of person who eats for fuel to do what i really want to do. Opps that was the first opposite i should of noticed.
What i should of tooken more seriously was his drinking. Jim likes to drink when we went on a date, usually a beer or tumbler of something. If he ever got tipsy, he was much more happier and sexual type, and since our relationship was only based on sex (even though in my young mind i thought otherwise), Jim never went beyond the horny/happy stage because i was always ready to oblige him.
What i found out years latter is Jim gets real happy, horny, moody, pissy, grudging, passed out, is the usually sequence of his drinking to much. (didnt figure this out so help me till i was in late 20's).
Here's another one that has seriously haunted our marriage. When jim was raised in the 70's , and being after the 60's: kids were doing a lot of pot. In high school, early college, the whole rebellion thing. Okay, this is what i truly believe and as i have had a lot of ADULT friends and acquaintances we have had this conversation: At what age do people usually stop doing the pot and alcohol of experimenting/rebellion against society/parents, and start seeing a bigger picture of life such as forgiveness for ones who wronged us in our youth.
You know what i mean, we grow up and have families, care for a children put there welfare and life before our own, be a good role model. Our generative activities, giving back to society a better world ect. So the big question, When about, does a young person stop pot and alcohol,most time it usually is done in a social setting, even if its at some one's house watching a game on t.v.????
Most say around 20 for females, and 23 for males. Is the usual norm. Some who marry in there latter 20's may straggle behind, but maturity and responsibility for our moral and social actions creep up sooner or latter.
There are the exceptions to that rule, the 60's pot smoker that has long gray hair and rides a harley or still living in his mothers house after she died and says "hey dude".
and of course:
The closet drinker or pot head who is married and goes with the guys/ or girls for there nite out.
Yep mine was the closet drinker and serious pot head. Jim still believes that if marijuana was legal he would do it everyday. Jim never ever has smoked pot around me, for he knows how i feel, but since he told me about divorce in June, he has flayed me with his liberal views enough to make me puke.
Jim i believe now has been doing pot and maybe bombs and tried other things our whole marriage, It explains his extreme mood swings, anger, laziness to do whats right for his family(i'll get into that latter), and his always being sleepy in the day. Hey ya party at night the body got to rest, even if your baby son is crawling all over you to get your attention.
March 26 2008
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