I HATE MY HUSBAND

I will unfortunately for anyone who actually reads this will occasionally go back in time to explain WHY i behave the way i do or the decisions i make based on my childhood and its influences, so sorry about that other wise it wouldn't even come close to making sense.

Met Jim while i was waitressing in college at a little pizza and beer joint. Was trying to make money for gas ect. Jim comes in with this other guy named mark patchel, and i found out they are both in the oil business. This area of life was totally greek to me at the time, so as a young horny 18 year old girl just let out from the umbrella of her over domineering family restrictions. Well i was just looking at jim and thinking he was HOT

We talked and started dating, if you can say it was dating, i think it was just bedding at that time, so here was my first mistake .

Mistake No. 1# never have your potential married partner and father of your children in bed before you find out what his religious beliefs are, his family beliefs are, his idea of what kind of father he wants to be, how many children he wants, and does he look at women only as sexual gratification or does he look at them as living ,thinking, important enough to REALLY listen to women.

Oh no, i didnt do that, i went straight to sex, and to be honest it was not banging great , but okay, (hint, hint) , so why did i keep dating him? He made me laugh and he was Hot to look at. And the most important, so help me god this was so messed up in my mind because of my parents, He told me his parents were teachers, and in my young mind i believed kids who have teachers as parents are from a normal family and i wanted a normal life.

have to understand, at school in pine tree school district in longview texas, all the kids who's parents were teachers or pto members were to me, smarter, more refined, was chosen to do everything, specially treated, because there parents were and are who they are.

So back to jim, here i am thinking wow, this is going to be a great gene pool for my kids, smart, articulate, my goodness this family goes nuts every time Jeopardy comes on t.v. Yep there smart, and dress nice, have nice cars, nice house. They are so....... normal, i want that....

boy was i wrong... march 15 2008